Why? What was your reason? What made you choose to drift away?
no i have never been here before, neither am i looking for sympathy. like i said i take full responsibility for my own actions. i can understand where others have suffered though. i came on strong but i was put in my place so lets call it even. but of course we all have to admit there are sour grapes here excluding my friend the lady who suffered bc of the molesting disaster and the other guy too and other deep issues as well. but that guy that said he was brainwashed as a kid, don't u think that all children are brainwashed by their parents in one way or another. i mean parents will download their upbringing into their children with all their oddities, its only natuiral, right??
well i never took any of this stuff so seriously. like the elder who would give me study was a little gung ho and saying how the big A was coming so baptism was necessary and all. i nodded in agreement and promptly didn't think about it. of course some things did seep thru like the morals, no wordly parties, or wordly friends. i kinda liked that, an insular community like the jews or the amish ( those r the guys that dont use electricity right). so i enjoyed our separation.
what i see now is that i never was a gung ho witness. my parents never forced anything on me either. sa. mornings when it was preaching time i would oversleep, too early to get up anyways. i guess there are many witnesses who do take all this stuff so deeply that it becomes their identity, not me. my mind was always daydreaming at meetings and as a child my parents would give me crayons and tell me to draw. they wouldn't scold me for sleeping either like at the assemblies. u know that is a great nap right after the lunchtime. the applause and the songs would wake me up though at which point i would also clap thunderously.
drifting wasn't a choice. it just happened. some of you may have the experience of gestapo style elders but not in my case. everyone went to the meetings, did theri thing and afterwards either went to eat or hang out. i was a party crasher, crashed jw weddings, jw baby showers, jw cong. get togethers. had a netwrok of friends who knew where the party was at. get together for free eats and check out the friends and of course the sisters. became famous for this got my ears pulled a bit by the elders but nothing more. once my friends got married, the contacts to crash the parties fizzled away. i saw myself going to less and less meetings. with the many splits of the cong. and address changes i just slowly drifted away. being a general slacker and never one to keep a schedule i drifted away. not by choice so i dont have any hard feelings.
hehehe, my work schedule is also spotty but i do the type of work where a schedule doesn't matter now though , mortgage broker. so the tough thing is the time frames and all but who like i said if i want to marry a nice jw girl i'd better straighten out.
bascially i was a bill and ted's excellent adventure type of witness, more like bil or ted hehehe . i remember once an elder asking me about bethel life in one of my more regular times. i told him the schedule would kill me even though i liked the videos about it. i mean getting up at 8 am or earlier everyday, cant do it. i am a slow eater and cant deall with the short time to eat. he shrugged and walked away.
